Lost...

When will be the day I'll have the confidence enough to do all the things I'm able to....?
When will be the day I can have enough money to bring my love one for some holidays....?
When will be the day I can earn more money to carry on with my plans of settling down....?
When will be the day I can really go for a chill without having worries and troubled minds....?
When will be the day I can really utilize my skills and knowledge to those idiots that things can be done in lots of better ways...?

I hope I know... But I don't know when.... I can only just keeping walking forward.... Just simply lost in some ways....

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Deepest fear

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darknes, that frightens us.
Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We are all meant to shine as children do.
It's not just in some of us, it is in everyone.
And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.

As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

念伤之感

嗜血的老虎 ..它.. 是否让你心慌
悲伤从嘻嘻哈哈又带来希望
害怕着一层接一层的发怒海浪
战争的苦难.. 谁能忘
是历史上的遗憾
那最珍惜的伙伴.. 却随着曲终人散
人类的感情.. 只会被那利益冲淡
为此而迷茫.. 他疯狂.. 他内心再喊
仇视的目光.. 他不管.. 他觉得很烦


谁人的歌唱.. 很抽象
能带领无知绵羊走入光的方向
谁人的烛光.. 很灿烂
能使到无限黑暗化为白色荧光
谁人的勇敢.. 如太阳
能协助无辜百姓仿佛进入天堂


英雄的模样.. 很慈祥.. 却牺牲死亡
所受的背叛.. 很孤单.. 他从此绝望


时间它过的很慢长.. 人们所留的血汗
也已变成 ..了.. 一种可笑的信仰。。。。。


-念伤之感-


这只是我有感而发的一篇文章，请留下意见哦！！

人生如戏...

庙口的街角,还在演着陌生熟悉的歌仔戏
看戏的人也只有零星的聚集,辛苦的似乎需要更多的鼓励

嘿 人生如戏,每一出戏里总会有一个自己
就算只剩一个人也要演下去,像一出没有对手的对手戏

一瞬间闪过好多画面,我还想再看到你熟悉的脸
我感觉的到我对你将永远永远的思念,为何你离我远去
又为何你没有消息,是否可以不再为了你哭泣

我想你可能已经全都忘记,但我还在缅怀你我的过去
虽有很多风雨,我存在记忆体
戏还没演完,你就要离去

一瞬间闪过好多画面,我还想再看到你熟悉的脸
我感觉的到我对你将永远永远的思念,为何你离我远去
又为何你没有消息,是否可以不再为了你哭泣

我身骑白马走三关,改换素衣回中原

我在梦中找无你,我的心已经跟你去
不知影何时返来我身边,已经不在

我想你可能已经全都忘记,但我还在缅怀你我的过去
虽有很多风雨, 我存在记忆体
戏还没演完, 你就要离去

还有没有时间能继续下去,不要到最后我还在这里
还在相信,这是我们的戏,而你是我的唯一

I have things to say too...

Whether or not, I'm not betraying anyone that's my way and it had already been chosen. All the things about the poetry is just a short story of what had happen. That's why the title is known as "Remained Concealed". Why "Concealed"? Because there is 0% possibility of an relationship going to happen. If you think that by making yourself gone will makes me better, You are truly wrong. You are only making me feeling worst and miserable.. And it wouldn't be fair to me. If you are that grateful to me, you should be cherishing me as your friend. I'm a straight person, I don't hide my feelings maybe thats the disadvantage cuz you get me all wrong... very wrong. On relationship issues, I do things in a more mature way.

DevilCp/Edwin is a person who loves doing things for his love ones unconditionally. This is how he feels happy and contended.

There are times "They" ask why I treated you so nice, my reply back is I treat you like my own blood sister. Else what can I do more??

Haizz... I really becomes an idiot now... Thanks...

麻坡的情歌---改詞

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詞: 葉覲郕, 黃明志

我不要你的憐憫 來挽救這脫軌的神經

你的笑 帶著同情 却搖著頭嘆息

幻滅的夢境裡 我盡力摸索愛情的真理

我解開了 猪籠繩裡的禁忌

去爭取 這相愛的權利

兩個人的愛默默在哭泣 來告訴你們相愛的勇氣

蝴蝶飛出了神秘叢林 面對大雨的突襲

一起走過盛開花季。

兩個人的愛默默在哭泣 來告訴你們相愛的勇氣

最後決定放棄 只能無奈面對這感情

我依然很愛你

這份愛 沒有邏輯 變成了你離去的原因

沒有人 願意接受相信 剩下我在努力

不想背叛自己 卻一直不斷被他們唾棄

我會繼續 直到我的抵抗力

足夠面對可畏的話語

鴛鴛被人離棄 在高牆另一頭痛苦的悲鳴

只要你相信 我一定堅持到底

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Just some thoughts

Just reach home not long, having a few thoughts while I were still in Pasir Ris.. A lots of "should I this or should I not" blah blah blah lol. Thinkings like should I go for upgrading my TKD Dan to 4th grade, should I ended Teddie's Cafe to look for better prospect, should I leave Singapore and take my friend's offering in overseas.... and lots more..... Really Stress like hell...

And to the adorable "one" who "might" think that Im over lapping your space... I'm not really sure if your edited post is refering to me or not.. as long as anyone who cares for you might also feel that you might be shooting them (arh I'm hit!!! Medic!!! Medic!!! LOL)... I can only understand that I send four message;

1st. ohayo blah blah blah...( late morning greeting as in Japanese.) 11:57 am


2nd. XXA is expanding! Lol. 4:49pm


3rd. Hmmm u busy for the whole day? If yes just let me know... 5:50 pm


4th. What happen oh? U totally don't reply at all. 7:18 pm


Equ formula = Greetings ---> Good News ---> Questions ---> Worried

worst... You remove my link....T.T wu wu wu... How can I not be SAD.. LOL

Your question in CBOX : "What can happen to me?" My Answer Here = NOTHING, BUT YOU NEVER KNOW BAD THINGS MIGHT HAPPEN.... (touch wood touch wood.... Baka Baka Baka!! >_!!!)

Its true that sometimes over concerning for one person may cause hasser to him or her, as I said it can be fine tune by just telling him or her or me (begin extra wa ha ha) with a proper manner. Sometimes I temp to over concerning for people too, LOL. Its only normal cuz we are merely just humans ha ha ha. Sometimes I do stupid things too, like this post, sound a bit stupid... wa ha ha.. But at least my actions show that I care, with that I'm able to withstand whatever it comes.

Now its my turn to said: "Don't take it to heart" LOL. I believe in you that you can take care of yourself well enough. So do take care and smoke less please!!!

last but not least, your reply on sms is needed still!!!

chilling out to sleep



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Its just another day

When i look at the mirror, "OH GOD, I'm a Panda!! " Having a very bad headache too, cause haven't been sleeping at all. taken about two pills of super extra strength panadol to suppress the pain. Not to worry as im able to hang on till at bight Not having a good day last night, so hope that things turn out just fine for me today, I don't really ask for more.

I'm prepare to smile again, cuz thats the way I am. Rather keep all the solo sadness to oneself thats for sure.

Later in the day I'll try to upload some picture of my drink that will be feature in some magazine for valentine day. Its called Lovers Fusion. I have plenty of ideas for new drinks, but it will only release from time to time... Can't help it, cuz I only have two hands..

Time to prepare for work. Its another day indeed. Hope that today sales will be good. For those who reads my blog, do come down to support Teddie Cafe (express branch) @ Pasir Ris Town Park. Will do my best to make you a drink of a day.

Everyone deserve a good drink!

Remained Concealed

She tells herself everyday to stop begin sad
Because she thinks she'll end up hurt
But something in her just keeps pushing
Something keeps whispering "it could work"

He sees the pain that she goes through
He can hears it well in her voice
He loves her more than ever
But it is not his choice at all

She thinks about her ex-boyfriend
The one that she's recently over with no reason
She decide given up on that relationship
But still seeking the truth of ending

He knows about her ex-boyfriend
And did all to help dig out the truth
But he can't help the way he feels
Yet mainly for the sake of her

She appreciate what he done for her
More then anyone could really do
Her eyes with tears as he wipe away with his hand
Never a guy clear so much of her precious tears

He stay till morning to accompany her
Just to make sure she feels better
He cherish and enjoy the moments with her at all times
which he never forgets the warm comforts within

She then gets the truth that were unknown to her
precious tear of pearls start dripping off her face
She still thinks she's the main fault of all
But she never really done any wrong at all

He has a girlfriend long for red carpet
Which he don't wish to betray or hurt any
His feelings for both are truthful that can't be measure
Its fate twisted him to make options between two

She knows that this is a big risk
After all he is her friend
But what about what she feels inside
she knows it doesn't work out in the end

He knows that they're just friends
Which is why he kept his feelings in for so long
He wanted to tell her sooner
But because of her ex-boyfriend it always felt wrong

She knows how hard it was for him to tell
And she just can't commit to anyone yet
After all her mind is all about her ex-boyfriend
Plus she doesn't want to do anything she'll regret

He suppose to be happy to be able to ease her mind
Yet it turn out to be heartbroken night
His using his sleepless night and tears to complete this poetry
Just want her to knows how he feels

He loves being around her
And she can't shake how he makes her feel
They are two close friends
But their relationship must remained concealed

a poetry story composed by DevilCp

你不是真正的快樂

人群中哭着 你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了
你静静忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
这世界笑了 于是你合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔着
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了
你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着


If someone can really understand how I feels....
Speechless feelings!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

A little mess up

Well its a bright new day today, and its my off day. Planned to go K-box to chill out a bit but guess that it has to be cancel. Somehow somethings caught in the way... Not having much mood on doing others things. Maybe this is just another day wasted. Haven't been sleeping well too, lots of thoughts pop out just like comic dialogs in my head. There are times that I wish I could just run away from all, but can't.. Cause life couldn't been so selfish or I'm been tie down with too much responsibility, feeling heavier each breath day by day.

I see myself always been able to help others to solve their problems, but why can't I really do that for my own. Feeling a bit mess up, what have I been doing recently. Cant find a place where I really belong to.. Should I accept my friend's offer to go overseas.. I really don't know.... Still I don't bare to be apart with my love ones again.

Never less I still bring smiles on my face to everyone I know or meet everyday without fail. Indeed, whatever written here is just my own problems. You might never know a smile could eventually make others a good day.

I need more plaster.

It does hurt, but guess that its really worth it... Don't ask why, I really don't know. I not even thinking when I'm doing it.

PanZi

PANZI!!!
haha super cute!!!



Cant believe it, my heart breaks to see her cry for the pass few days. Lol
Just to make thing clear that I'm not the one who make her cry..... wa ha ha.

Days of wearing spec

While tidying my room, I found my old spec. Trying out with it... hmmm somehow dont really used to it like last time.... Looks kind of funny. Lol

Cows ~~ moo moo!

The Cow's Family

Brought these cows at Yew Tee, so cute, love them all!

My new Gundam on the shelf

The GN OOOO

GN family! ^^

Allure Gems

My other blog project is finally done!!!!! Hope that this gems show case really works.

Back to blogging

Sorry to all my readers, Been slightly lazy to blog for a while. Getting busier now a days, but never less I try to post more often.

My Choice

My choice of beer today, Heineken (drinking with Stanly).

Everything is by choice not chance
always be happy, sing and dance
no matter what is the situation?
smile alike having a celebration.

Sometimes problems do come
but choose to smile some
it helps a lot to get a solution
as I find is the best option.

That is the way journey should be
if not trouble-free it won’t be
make it easy and interesting
enjoy all you have everything.

Just relax, chill at each occasion
get the bottom of every problem
do the best you can all time
rest is always with the faith of Goddess.